
The last five years of my life have been so full of changes. I have lost so many friends and have changed my lifestyle so dramatically. I don’t even remember who I used to be. The last eight months have been full of a different kind of transformation, new to what I used to know, and in that time I have fallen head over heels for a beautiful, brown-eyed girl… but the “old me” is finding ways to get in the way of my happiness. What is wrong with me? Why can’t I just be happy and think like a normal 19-year-old girl?
Maybe this is merely 3am talking, but it feels as if, now that I am home for the summer, who I used to be is creeping back up on me; the skeletons in my closet are waking up. I need to find a way to hold on to the girl that I love, without losing my mind in this one-star-cow-town that I call home.